Well, to say that my journey has gone well is a lie. I haven't posted, I haven't exercised, I haven't done a darn thing to help myself. I have to change. Why don't I have the willpower to do so???? I feel like an absolute failure. Can I do something about this fact? Absolutely. Do I want to do something? Absolutely. Do I believe in myself enough to make it happen? I don't know. Maybe that's the problem. Maybe I don't believe in myself enough to even get started on changing my life. I can't even keep my stupid house clean. How can I take on such a big challenge as making better lifestyle changes? I want to live a long healthy and happy life, but I haven't done anything to make that happen. I suck. I can't even give up pop like I have been wanting to do. I need to use this blog as my journal, as my venting machine, as my accountability tool.
I have been having some health concerns lately...must get to the doctor to figure out what is causing lower back pain, cramps, and left hip pain. Could be all this extra weight. I don't know, but I have to figure it out.
I have so very far to go...it's overwhelming. I think that is the other thing that holds me back. I need to quit looking long term and the long road to get there. I need to focus short term: just today. What can I do today to be healthy? First answer: exercise. I'm going to switch the laundry and head to the basement to the long-ignored elliptical.
Praying for the strength each day to make good choices. Going to dump out my pop and get a glass of water. If you're the praying type, please pray for me.
